Like Never Before
It’s your propitious and affable smile back then,
Viewing the otherwise same world with a refreshed eyesight,
And, feeling the pulse of the same life, like never before.
Your inspiriting smile has made me break up,
With reluctance, anticipations and external validation,
I’ve never felt better and confident within myself,
All because of you turning to be my bulwark.
Now your caustic smile always shudders me,
I wonder why, how and when did this happen,
The same person, and the same eloquent smile,
Yet, uncooperative, demanding and ruthless in gesture.
There’s constant slur, and there’s inexpressible mental torment,
Once a smug smile, that has made me try to live bright,
Now, being alive has become a terrible infliction,
A smile from the raging inferno and Jeremiah.
And, in-between, I’ve mussed my roseate smile,
O, there’s one always at the lip’s corner,
But, stolid and unappealing to every eye,
A façade I’ve learnt to uphold like never before.